A New Day

THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE
LET ME BE A BLESSING
NOT TO GET SUCKED INTO GOSSIP
TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO ONE PERSON
TO CARE
TO PRAY
TO LOVE AS GOD LOVES ME
TO FORGIVE
MYSELF
TO START OVER
BEING THE BEST I CAN BE
NOT BY MY WILL BUY BY THE GRACE OF GOD.

It is now March 3

And my goal is still to keep moving. I have been away for a bit. But i have been having a wonderful time. Went to New Orleans for Mardi Gras. Going back home is always bittersweet. This time is was just sweet. I may blog about that later. But for now i am staying with my "Keep Moving" theme. Being away from the gym for 3 weeks was fun but now i am motivated to start back. The music, the people working out, the opportunity to just be with me makes me happy. That is how i feel at the gym when i am sweating. It is 2nd semester at school and that means alot of deadlines. Lately i don't feel like my light is shining. I am frustrated and need more hours in the day. It makes me feel short and a little nasty. I don't like to be that way. I know getting back to moving will help. That and prayer. Thankful that I can ask for forgiveness and know that I can start over again tomorrow.

Seeing my baby

My baby girl is 20. She has just started nursing school. AS in 3 weeks ago. She is a precious child who loves to laugh, can be very indecisive, knows right from wrong and loves her family. So it hurts to see she is seeing someone we all DO NOT LIKE! From the first time I met him I was trying to be open minded about this young person who had all ready done it all better, faster, bigger etc.
I know of another gentleman like this and I am glad he is no longer married to one of my BFF's. But seeing all the pain she went through leaving him was hard. I continue to pray for my girl and I believe in her and know in my heart she will continue to learn and grow and one day look back on life's lessons with a wiser heart. I miss her so much! But today she is coming home and I will welcome her with open arms ! Memorizing and absorbing every second with her. Being a mother never ends. I always want the best for my children. I want them to have the knowledge that they can do anything they set their mind to, they CAN have it all. (All meaning an abundance of people you love who love you, a family that is far reaching) But it does take hard work and discipline. I pray she continues to grow under God's watchful eye. I am reminded that at a young age she accepted Jesus and asked to be baptized after seeing her sister transform into a new creation also. Mark and Sandee spoke with her and even tried to get her to wait until she was older but she said "no." She heard that quiet still voice. I will wait and continue to pray. "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. Not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works , which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:8-10

I am moving....

After all that is the inspiration for my blog. Keep moving. When i was growing up and living in different situations I found that moving "physically" helped me cope with the emotional issues i was struggling with. In my childhood years there were not social workers in schools and no one talked about sexual or emotional abuse. You just dealt with it and moved on. Literally. i knew i was different and I knew I did not belong but could never put my finger on what was different about me. I was very skinny and do not have many memories of that time. I am ok with that. I do remember that I was a great long distance runner. i loved to run. It would exhaust my mind so that i could relax my body. Now years later i still truly enjoy that time to regroup with myself. I taught aerobics for years when the kids were young, i loved doing it and motivating others to do it with me. I found wonderful friendships and shared that bond with many mothers. I am so thankful to have a healthy body. I am thankful that I have a gym near my home that I can go to. This week i have been to the gym 4 times and have walked 5 miles on the treadmill at home. It has been a great start after the holiday celebrations to get back to it!!!

Happy New Year 2010

Our New Years have always been centered around our kids. My husband of nearly 30 years literally turns into a 10 year old when it comes to the tradition of popping fireworks. Thus, party at our house in our cul de sac with all our neighbors outside at midnight for the grand finale. I have been able to have a couple of weeks off since I work in the school system and the time i have been spending with our children and grandchildren has been priceless. Very relaxing. Now the reality of a New Year. No long term resolutions for me. But definitely some month long short term ones.
1. Get back into the gym. (I always do this so its nothing new but restarting after a break of eating and relaxing makes it a goal.)
2. Keep my blog going. Have never had one but like the idea of thinking my thoughts and giving them a place to reside.
Yup that's good for the month of January.
Our little Jackson who is 18 months old stood up and clapped for himself as we all cheered him on.
Sasha started her LPN program today. She has chosen to be in an abusive relationship. I will refer to as Ronald McDonald. For this I am sad but believing in the God of all to give me strength and her wisdom.
Praying for health in 2010 and jobs for Bobby.

Yesterday I was 56

For me its a big deal because for so many years I have not kept track of that trivial detail. I was busy being a mom and a wife and age mattered little. Truth be known it really doesn't matter now except that yesterday I did have a surprise birthday party. Bobby made my favorite homemade pizza and Ra put together the details. It was a celebration for sure. Today is my oldest BFF Marlene's birthday. We met before I was married and have continued to keep a special long distance relationship. We have shared a lifetime of memories. Having babies together she has 2 girls. Katie is a Senior and Jessica is graduating college. I have 3. Justin lives in Vidalia he is a dad to Marbear who is 6. He commutes to our home every other week and meets up with his little princess at our home for the weekend. Sasha is at Athens, Ga. She starts her LPN nursing school Jan 5th. And then Ra my first born. The one I made all my mistakes on learning how to be a mom and she still came out wonderful. Praise God for that! Ra is happily married to Brian and they have the most wonderful son Jackson who is 18 months. Everyone needs that friend they can always be themselves with and who loves them no matter what. Marlene and I have watched each other make mistakes along the way but always overlooked that and supported one another. Our only regrets are that we were not next door neighbors and although she lives in Colorado and I in Georgia when ever we get together it feels like we are next door neighbors cause we don't skip a beat. I love you Marlene you are the sister I always wanted. I am a believer that families are not always blood relatives. Marlene and I are witness to that. Happy Birthday to you ol' gal!!!!!

Some thoughts...

I have so much to say and share. Time to organize some thoughts. First of all I believe that every day is a new opportunity to reach out and make a difference to love and give. But when that love comes your way I truly have to sit back and absorb the moment. Our children Ra and B gave to us in a big way. B brought his lawn mower over and literally transformed our yard. He even inspired Bobby to go out and blow for a while. And he did it just because. Brian has done this before and every time I am moved. You see I love my space and love it to look good. It makes me feel like the fact that I love my life is reflected outside also. Ra helped me organize all the toys that were stock piling in the play room. She takes me all over Atlanta and we share special moments with Jackson all the time. Such a gift all the way around. I am going to do better about keeping up with my blog.