Mothers Day

I shall never tire of feeling loved

I felt loved !!!

Saturday the girls and  I did the Gardens for Connoisseurs

Atlanta Botanical Gardens

Before the first stop (5 acre estate on West Paces Ferry,

Arthur Blank's house,owner of Falcons and Home Depot)

I told the girls remember that part in Pretty Woman when she is all dressed up and they are going to the Opera, she is wearing the red dress and she tells him in the elevator "If i forget to tell you later, i had a great time today."  

It made me tear up they probably thought LAME.

It was a very fun day.  Lots of driving.  One day i do want to walk around the prado in ATLANTA.  Not necessarily the middle "private" walkway but look at all the houses and their gardens.  And next year i want to end up at the Botanical Gardens for the evening activities.  Then top the evening off with Cafe Intermezzo.  YUP that's the plan.

So thankful for my private Chauffeur.  Thanks Ra.

I love you girls and love for us to all share memories together.

Surery Day

Its Tuesday and i should be up to my elbows in paperwork.  End of the school year and there are lots of "TO DO's"  But i will be sitting in a waiting room waiting for Bobby to come safetly from surgery for Kidney Stones.  YUCK.  He will be brave and i will be brave with him.  Praying for a painless recovery and he will be back on the road to good health.  Also praying for a job for him !! Financial peace for a while would be a welcome blessing

Sunday

I have things i want to do and things i have to do

Wants:
Ride Bike
Go Run
Finish organizing and going through clothes, etc.
MY ROOM LIST
Go look at and purchase some new plants for the back porch i cleaned out
Sew (purse or bag i have a pattern for)
Relax and read a book
Watch the Princess movie Brian gave me
Make peace with Sasha
NEED TO DO:
Go Run/ Mental  regroup
Clean mop organize kitchen (Company later)
Mow the back yard
Weed the places around the house that need it
Blow out driveway and garage
Clean out my car
Organize my purse
Finish recycle process of my room

OK It's 9:00 am maybe this will motivate me to get lots done.....

Lessons Learned (finally)

Probably not.  Now that i have raised and sometimes am still offering advice to my children.  I get this great lesson that reminds me i do not have to know everything and i am most certainly not in charge!!!  Thus the weekend fight with my youngest.  OK so she is "talking" to the EX boyfriend we don't like.  It does not give me the right to not consider her feelings when dealing with this issue.  I will attempt to be more mindful of her feelings.  I need to remember that when talking to my other children they are going to "attack" since they share some of the same feelings we do.  What i do not understand is how she can be so "blind" to the logic of it all.  I guess i am reminded that i also made mistakes that helped my mold in to who i wanted to become.  So i must be patient.  God allows us our trials so we can become the creation he intended us to be.  I apologize to God and ask forgiveness for attempting to take this matter into my own hand and have little faith and He has a bigger and better plan.  My job is to love my children unconditionally!  I pray i become a more aware and loving mother and wife.  With my arms open not crossed.....

Well of course, I am a chicken

Knowing surgery was days away made me feel anxious

and nervous.  Not that i didn't want my thumb to get better just that I don't like hospital WHITE,  Time just stops in a hospital setting and you don't feel in control.

But it is over, I don't remember a thing.  

Ra was my anchor and i am thankful she was here to help me out.

Bobby went out to the lake for this last bit of weekend.  Justin, Lyndsey, and Marah are there also.

Stitches out on Friday and it should be good as new.  I had been doing a great job walking but have taken a few days off.  Surgery was Thursday and I will start walking again tomorrow.  (Sunday)

I still have lots of projects to do around the house.  Wash and see which capris fit me for spring,  organize my jewelry on my $10.00 garage sale find.

Saturday Mornings

I am finishing up week one.

According to Livestrong.com

The calories are being counted and I guess they matter.

No real change in poundage but that is ok!

For now i feel great EXCEPT

i do have anxiety about my left thumb surgery on Thursday.

I know "He is a doctor, He does it all the time, It will be better after!"

What if..

It creeps in and makes me feel vulnerable and a little fearful.

Plus I don't like being unable to do what i want to do WAH

There i said it I vented !!!

Today i am alone at home which i cherish and love. 

Bobby is at Oconee getting all those things taken care of. 

I know how much he loves being there and sometimes

have to PUSH him to get going.

I am cleaning, laundry, office work and "hanging out"

When i return home all will be in order its my crazy ~ I claim it ~

When you can't control other things  (surgery outcome)

By George I can control my house being organized and clean.

Yup  its my crazy and it doesn't have to make sense.

Listening to Nora Jones, windows open, birds singing in the background

That's a good thing for sure 

Big Fat Happy Tears

That's exactly happened when i received these at work on March 30

Well actually at first i was just shocked and puzzled

Then i read this

Now the Big Fat Happy Tears as many coworkers stopped by and they also

said "Awwwwww"  Justin was not there to hug me but i received many.

They are home with me now so i can enjoy them here also.

A son...

There is something so powerful about that.  I remember thinking after he was born " I made a penis, how did that happen.?"  I asked God to help me wrap my brain around that concept because no part of me could understand this miracle.   Apparently Bobby was pretty impressed also because he was the photographer since Justin was our second baby and we had a better clue what to expect.  We talked about it and decided we wanted those first pictures to be taken by dad.  I remember hearing him say "It's a boy!  It's a boy" many times as we were both crying.  I was so excited to see these first pictures of our baby boy so new and fresh to the world.  His precious face and hands and feet.  Instead i looked at probably 7 pictures of his enlarged penis.  Bobby said he does not remember taking that many but the poses are all different and no one else had the camera.  

Justin grew up outside playing and running and jumping!   He was a boy!  i often wondered why he could not sit quietly and color and look at books.  Tamara did and she managed to stay clean for most of the day.  I quickly realized i had an ACTIVE baby.  He has a big heart and becoming a dad himself has opened him up to a wonderful world full of little kissed and hugs.  Marah loves her dad there is no doubt about that.  That spot in her heart is for him alone.  I love watching them together.  He has a woman in his life now that we are waiting to watch the outcome of.  I love watching all those special moments as well.  I am so glad he is leaving much closer to us now.

He blessed me today in a big way. I still tear up when i think of this act of kindness!