Yesterday I was 56

For me its a big deal because for so many years I have not kept track of that trivial detail. I was busy being a mom and a wife and age mattered little. Truth be known it really doesn't matter now except that yesterday I did have a surprise birthday party. Bobby made my favorite homemade pizza and Ra put together the details. It was a celebration for sure. Today is my oldest BFF Marlene's birthday. We met before I was married and have continued to keep a special long distance relationship. We have shared a lifetime of memories. Having babies together she has 2 girls. Katie is a Senior and Jessica is graduating college. I have 3. Justin lives in Vidalia he is a dad to Marbear who is 6. He commutes to our home every other week and meets up with his little princess at our home for the weekend. Sasha is at Athens, Ga. She starts her LPN nursing school Jan 5th. And then Ra my first born. The one I made all my mistakes on learning how to be a mom and she still came out wonderful. Praise God for that! Ra is happily married to Brian and they have the most wonderful son Jackson who is 18 months. Everyone needs that friend they can always be themselves with and who loves them no matter what. Marlene and I have watched each other make mistakes along the way but always overlooked that and supported one another. Our only regrets are that we were not next door neighbors and although she lives in Colorado and I in Georgia when ever we get together it feels like we are next door neighbors cause we don't skip a beat. I love you Marlene you are the sister I always wanted. I am a believer that families are not always blood relatives. Marlene and I are witness to that. Happy Birthday to you ol' gal!!!!!

Some thoughts...

I have so much to say and share. Time to organize some thoughts. First of all I believe that every day is a new opportunity to reach out and make a difference to love and give. But when that love comes your way I truly have to sit back and absorb the moment. Our children Ra and B gave to us in a big way. B brought his lawn mower over and literally transformed our yard. He even inspired Bobby to go out and blow for a while. And he did it just because. Brian has done this before and every time I am moved. You see I love my space and love it to look good. It makes me feel like the fact that I love my life is reflected outside also. Ra helped me organize all the toys that were stock piling in the play room. She takes me all over Atlanta and we share special moments with Jackson all the time. Such a gift all the way around. I am going to do better about keeping up with my blog.

From my perspective: Our little Jackson is one year old. He is a handsome, loving little guy. This first year has been a time to remember how it felt to have my babies and be able to relive those memories watching Ra with Jackson. I love knowing that she is having as much fun with him as I did with her. And i will say she get the star when it comes to creativity. I am so excited for this birthday weekend. A 4 day event for sure. I miss my babies which is so clear when Sasha comes to visit and then leaves for Athens. When she leaves I feel the void of having my baby drive to her home that is not in my 4 walls. My house feels to big and empty for me. i love being by myself during the day to just be here but when it gets dark and I have to enter the house alone it does not feel very homey to me. There are to many crazy people these days that do not value human life. I have so many things ahead of me still and want to be around to experience them. I did go for my physical yesterday and will soon know my blood levels. I weighted 146.5. I am going to get down to 135?! that is my goal. I am successfully walking 5-7 miles a day and if feels so good to keep moving.....