Seeing my baby

My baby girl is 20. She has just started nursing school. AS in 3 weeks ago. She is a precious child who loves to laugh, can be very indecisive, knows right from wrong and loves her family. So it hurts to see she is seeing someone we all DO NOT LIKE! From the first time I met him I was trying to be open minded about this young person who had all ready done it all better, faster, bigger etc.
I know of another gentleman like this and I am glad he is no longer married to one of my BFF's. But seeing all the pain she went through leaving him was hard. I continue to pray for my girl and I believe in her and know in my heart she will continue to learn and grow and one day look back on life's lessons with a wiser heart. I miss her so much! But today she is coming home and I will welcome her with open arms ! Memorizing and absorbing every second with her. Being a mother never ends. I always want the best for my children. I want them to have the knowledge that they can do anything they set their mind to, they CAN have it all. (All meaning an abundance of people you love who love you, a family that is far reaching) But it does take hard work and discipline. I pray she continues to grow under God's watchful eye. I am reminded that at a young age she accepted Jesus and asked to be baptized after seeing her sister transform into a new creation also. Mark and Sandee spoke with her and even tried to get her to wait until she was older but she said "no." She heard that quiet still voice. I will wait and continue to pray. "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. Not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works , which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:8-10

I am moving....

After all that is the inspiration for my blog. Keep moving. When i was growing up and living in different situations I found that moving "physically" helped me cope with the emotional issues i was struggling with. In my childhood years there were not social workers in schools and no one talked about sexual or emotional abuse. You just dealt with it and moved on. Literally. i knew i was different and I knew I did not belong but could never put my finger on what was different about me. I was very skinny and do not have many memories of that time. I am ok with that. I do remember that I was a great long distance runner. i loved to run. It would exhaust my mind so that i could relax my body. Now years later i still truly enjoy that time to regroup with myself. I taught aerobics for years when the kids were young, i loved doing it and motivating others to do it with me. I found wonderful friendships and shared that bond with many mothers. I am so thankful to have a healthy body. I am thankful that I have a gym near my home that I can go to. This week i have been to the gym 4 times and have walked 5 miles on the treadmill at home. It has been a great start after the holiday celebrations to get back to it!!!

Happy New Year 2010

Our New Years have always been centered around our kids. My husband of nearly 30 years literally turns into a 10 year old when it comes to the tradition of popping fireworks. Thus, party at our house in our cul de sac with all our neighbors outside at midnight for the grand finale. I have been able to have a couple of weeks off since I work in the school system and the time i have been spending with our children and grandchildren has been priceless. Very relaxing. Now the reality of a New Year. No long term resolutions for me. But definitely some month long short term ones.
1. Get back into the gym. (I always do this so its nothing new but restarting after a break of eating and relaxing makes it a goal.)
2. Keep my blog going. Have never had one but like the idea of thinking my thoughts and giving them a place to reside.
Yup that's good for the month of January.
Our little Jackson who is 18 months old stood up and clapped for himself as we all cheered him on.
Sasha started her LPN program today. She has chosen to be in an abusive relationship. I will refer to as Ronald McDonald. For this I am sad but believing in the God of all to give me strength and her wisdom.
Praying for health in 2010 and jobs for Bobby.