Thursday, April 1, 2010

Big Fat Happy Tears

That's exactly happened when i received these at work on March 30
Well actually at first i was just shocked and puzzled
Then i read this
Now the Big Fat Happy Tears as many coworkers stopped by and they also
said "Awwwwww"  Justin was not there to hug me but i received many.
They are home with me now so i can enjoy them here also.
A son...
There is something so powerful about that.  I remember thinking after he was born " I made a penis, how did that happen.?"  I asked God to help me wrap my brain around that concept because no part of me could understand this miracle.   Apparently Bobby was pretty impressed also because he was the photographer since Justin was our second baby and we had a better clue what to expect.  We talked about it and decided we wanted those first pictures to be taken by dad.  I remember hearing him say "It's a boy!  It's a boy" many times as we were both crying.  I was so excited to see these first pictures of our baby boy so new and fresh to the world.  His precious face and hands and feet.  Instead i looked at probably 7 pictures of his enlarged penis.  Bobby said he does not remember taking that many but the poses are all different and no one else had the camera.  
Justin grew up outside playing and running and jumping!   He was a boy!  i often wondered why he could not sit quietly and color and look at books.  Tamara did and she managed to stay clean for most of the day.  I quickly realized i had an ACTIVE baby.  He has a big heart and becoming a dad himself has opened him up to a wonderful world full of little kissed and hugs.  Marah loves her dad there is no doubt about that.  That spot in her heart is for him alone.  I love watching them together.  He has a woman in his life now that we are waiting to watch the outcome of.  I love watching all those special moments as well.  I am so glad he is leaving much closer to us now.
He blessed me today in a big way. I still tear up when i think of this act of kindness! 



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