It's Christmas Card Time!

With the Chirstmas Season quickly approaching and now that I am really loving the whole picture sharing experience. Shutterfly is making sending out holiday cards so easy for me.  I really want to start sending photos of our family to share.  Have you seen their Christmas Cards this year? You need to check them out! I love this one with lots of places for our pictures.

Or this one. I love the old fashioned Christmas colors.

They can even help with gift giving. If you have a coffee drinker in the family like me. {hint hint} They have  photo coffee mugs! Look how cute and it comes with Chocolate! 

Another great thing about Shutterfly is that they can help with your card needs year round.

Birthday Invites anyone. My daughter is celebrating her 30th this year. 

So my point is run to Shutterfly and check out the Christmas cards selections. It's not to late to get your personalized cards out this year. It is such a sweet way to send cards for the holidays. I won't share the "one" with you( I want you to be surprised when you open your mailbox)  but, I will show you my runner up.

JOY! I love it. 

We actually took our family pictures at the Monastery this year.  Our friend Shannon took many pictures of us on a Sunday several weeks ago.  I look forward to sending them out on the design template we have chosen.  I love how easy shutterfly makes this whole process. 

CC 

Fun Weekend /Time Change Saturday

What fun to have the babies spend the night.  That happened on Friday.  I need to take more pictures.  But these are a couple of Friday night.  Saturday I ran a 10K at Callaway Gardens with some friends.  I rocked it for me.  My time was 1 hour 2 minutes and 23 seconds.  The shirts were the color of dirt not very impressed BUT Ra and B ran the Strong Legs Run in ATL and B gave me his shirt :)
Sunday we took family pictures at the Monestary and I am very excited to see how they turned out.  Brian did major yard work today and I am happy with this fun filled weekend...  Still working on moving and taking of these pounds.

Thankfulness All Month Long

Thanksgiving has always been our very favorite holiday.
I have so many memories of Bobby and mom cooking the day away and getting so excited to have that perfect creation for their loved ones to enjoy.
We also like to get up very early together and enjoy that morning being together followed by an early nap. 
So this season on Thankfulness i truly celebrate each and every day!!!

Oct 25, 2010

I mean let's get moving Cisilia!!

Slacker was sick and on antibiotics but got on the scale this weekend and I see where that Holloween candy has gone.  To my butt and stomach.
SSoooo  i am going to the gym tonight Eagles Landing gonna do a class with weights then some Hip Hop!!  We will see how smoothly i move tomorrow.  I love the challenge of doing it. Did i mention i signed up for a 10K at Callaway Gardens in two weeks.  OK .. of I go

6 years ago today... 10/17

Another year,

and what it means to me is another confirmation

that this wonderful couple

 are the best ever.  They have figured out that taking care of each other goes along way in making a happy life for this sweet boy.  This was their anniversary weekend.  I am so excited that we got to share these moments with them and their sweet precious little boy.

Jackson is so blessed to have them as his parents.

Happy Anniversary to the Williamson's with heartfelt love.

You sure do add lots of laughter and fun to our lives on Pebble Brook Lane.

"Into the Wild" Chris McCandless

Seen the movie and read the book.
One quote really stood out.  i had to go back and find it to remind myself that i had to really think about this.
Unlike Muir and Thoreau, McCandless went in the the wilderness not primarily to ponder nature or the world at large but, rather: to explore the inner country of his own soul.  He soon discovered, however, what Muir and Thoreau already knew: An extended stay in the wilderness inevitable directs one's attention outward as much as inward, and it is impossible to live off the land without developing both a subtle understanding of, and a strong emotional bond with, that land and all it holds.
He graduated from Emory in 1990. He was an extremely intense young man and possessed a streak of stubborn idealism that did not mesh readily with modern existence.  He spent 16 weeks in a bus in Alaska.  I was very moved by this story.

Inhale Fall

I can't I repeat Can't explain how much i love this fall weather

But i will try:

I love that to everything there is a season and a promise of Newness

I love that the color of the sky and clouds is robin blue

I love that the crispness as i run/walk remind of the season change

I love the smells

I love the windows being open all the time and the feel of cool

I love that family and friends gather, even if its to watch football

I love that i get to change my scents from Bath and Body works

I love that things take on a newness and awareness

I love the festivals and the color orange

I love life and living in the moment and being thankful for all that is!!!

Fall break this week and once again my to do list is long:

Today is get it done day.

Jackson spent the night last night. That was high on my list :)

Making crafts

Reorganizing drawers and closets

Recycling stuff

Washing all my bedding

Reading and Movie or two

Stopping and taking the time to Inhale Fall such a pleasure.

Thank you God for every moment I am here.

Happy Birthday to my baby

How did she turn 21 all ready. Wasn't she our baby just a minute ago. She has always been independent and had a sense of what she wanted for herself. She had a desire to accomplish and succeed. She was organized and book smarts came easy to her. She learned a few hard lessons along the way but did those with grace and courage. She taught me that she could endure and that i could not protect her at every turn. That is all a mom wants to do, is to protect her loved ones from any harm or hurt. She would "cut" those who even tried to bring pain to her babies. Today at 9:31 she turned 21. Last night Tamara and i took her out for her birthday celebration. First of all, let me say that she would even want her mom along for that meant so much to me. No surprise that she would want Tamara and I along, we are alot of fun :) But I do not take it for granite that she would make that choice. Thanks Sasha !! I am so thankful for my family. I hate the thought sometimes that i am on the back side of 50 but that is only because i truly love every day I can spend looking forward to the many events that happen every day. Seeing my babies and their babies is the greatest joy i could ever hope to experience. 

OK Note to self::

Get all your pictures scanned so you can put them on your blog!!!!

The dirty " C" Word

We have a 9th grade student at our school who will loose her leg this Friday because of cancer. She was a healthy softball player who got hit in the leg and after tests for pain that would not go away was diagnosed with this cancer. She has all ready undergone intense treatment, lost her hair and now will loose her leg. The other issue is that they found a spot on her lung so the focus will be on more chemo. I hurt for her.
Another peer who i love and whose family has been part of mine for 20 years was diagnosed with leukemia on Saturday. She starts her radiation tomorrow.
Our ex-neighbors mom is also fighting cancer that has gone to her brain. She is currently on a trip to Scotland which will be her last adventure. I sincerely hope she has the time of her life.
My dear friend's mom is also battling cancer. She has finished her chemo and now will undergo all the testing to see if it has stopped. She just celebrated her 70th birthday.
Thank you for the health of my children. Thank you for me life. I will continue to stand in the gap for these precious loved ones.

New Pair of Tennis Runners

Let it be noted that i am sporting a new pair.
Having a new pair of shoes is such a gift. I know when i need them
because my feet start hurting ... for a long time after i run.

So last weekend was their maiden voyage. Bike ride around Stone Mountain
Walk up then walk around. So very, very fun. Followed by a nice tasty meal
at Dakalb Farmers Market. Then home to watch TV and veg....

Weekend Alone!!

It is so fun and exciting for me to have ME time. Bobby is in Florida having a boys weekend also. I just finished my 4 mile run/walk and am feeling great. i love the endorphin feeling after a good workout. My mind is spinning with things to do.
Eat
Drink H20
Weed my outside garden by the house
Wash sheets
Mop kitchen floor
Vacuum
Take a shower, clean up and meet Celeste for an afternoon of fun.
AND did i mention i am the proud owner of a d40 Digital Nikon SOOooo
now there will be pictures as i learn to use it with lots of help from Ra.
Happy Saturday

It is a Rainy Saturday

But i got my ass up early and went to the Mountain of Stone before the weather hit.
So fun to start my day off like that.
Then i got a massage it was wonderful except had to cut it short so i could meet
MarBear and Justin for a movie.
Dispicable Me.. very cute!

Have started meeting Tammie Herrington in the Media Center for early am
prayer time. It has been wonderful and I thank God for her and this
time to regroup before school. I hope we stay with it all year long!!!!

3:00 am .."What's on your mind??"

Sasha and Ben.
Now that is something i was so hopeful was behind us. But looks like he won and now they are together again. Sucks!!
Makes me worried what will happen next time?
She has so much potential and yet she chooses a loser. Someone who manipulates and puts ideas into her head, 'a user.' She says he has changed and that she was not totally honest about the break up. Which one? Doesn't matter. I know enough to know that i am hurting knowing she is there and has chosen to be there. Having babies is a life long connection of worry. You never want them to hurt or be hurt. You want the very best for them. You don't want them to learn life lessons the hard way and have to be exposed to pain and suffering. Truly i want so much for all of my kids. And overall i have to be so thankful that i have such a wonderful family. Each of them add joy to our lives just by being here. We are all writing our own story God gives us that right. I pray He will continue to teach her His ways and draw her near to Him. Same goes for Justin. He also has a long way to go. But then so do i! Lessons learned that i have all ready learned again this year. Working with the public has many lessons. I pray i will be a "light" and will walk away from all drama...

A New School Year

And with that comes routine. I am so fortunate to have time away to regroup. I am grieving that i have misplaced my
1. Wedding Ring
2. Ring i got for my birthday last year
3. Ring i got about 8 years ago for my birthday that i loved

I loved all these rings and am feeling very sad i do not know where they are !!!
WWWAAAAHHHH... I will be so happy and excited if they ever show up and will never take them off again.
That said..
I recently had my physical and was pleased that i have lost 7 pounds since my last one but a little mad that i am still considered over weight on the doctors chart. i mean for real.

Just today i met a friend @ 6:30 am to walk up Stone Mountain, Bike around it then walk around it. My favorite kind of day. The humidity was down and it was the perfect start to my 2 days off work.

I got Bobby a new TV for his birthday it was a big surprise. So glad we also got the Blue Ray since it is the bomb. Avatar movie rocks!!

Up early School starts soon

Yes indeed,
It does. And with that "Busy"
Lots on my mind
But wanted to share some happy thoughts
Yesterday was Bobby's birthday. I came home to spend the evening with him and he was content to start reading a new book he got himself with a gift certificate from Sasha. He does not read hardback books waits for them to come out on paperback. Baloo decided to eat part of it last night. So angry about that dog sometimes. Then i realize it is a dog and needs to be trained. So i walked outside and looked up at the sky and Thanked God for all my blessings and wonderful years with this man. I love him so much! Then as i looked over Baloo was pooping. Go figure!
It was also Ra's 29th birthday. My baby girl, first born is now a mama. The circle of life continues as it should. She makes me happy. Great weekend but feeling a little tired and still have lots on my plate. Going to get Bobby a new TV, flat screen for his birthday. He is going to be sooooo excited! I know he is.
I will work on getting that all organized today.

Want to put some pictures on my blog... Stay organized.... Which i am doing now. Up early catching up on paperwork in the office !!!!!

Back at work... But wanted to check on my to do list.

So checking back on my to do list. I actually accomplished half of them. I am pleased with that since i only had a couple of weeks to get them done. Not bad "cc"
Had fun catching up on the blogs. Now i just need to keep moving !!!

Heavenly Hawaii Scents

My note to Robin:

You made me so happy there are no words.  When the boxes arrived we were both home.  Bobby reading and me getting some much needed piles of paper sorted and taken care of.  And it said flowers.  I was not sure if they came to the right address.  No birthday, anniversary.  And Bobby was just as surprised as i was then he said they are from Robin.  Oh My Goodness.  The smell as soon as i opened the box made me drunk with laughter.  Needless to say i wore it all day and actually slept with some of the tuberose
flowers.  I am still enjoying their sweet fragrance.  A thank you is just not enough.  The love that you sent is timeless.  I had promised a friend that i would take her to get her car.  She is a teacher at my school.  Her A/C broke which caused a fish tank to leak (?)  Anyway lots of fans at her house and i took her to get her car with her little 8 month old.  As she stepped in my car i could tell by the look on her face she was wanting to know what i had on my neck.  When she opened the car door she said Those are real aren't they.  "Well yes, they are!  All the way from Kuai."  It made us both happy.  Then i had to go to Ra's so she could take a picture and share this treasure.  Since last night was church night, i posted on facebook i would be coming with my piece of heavenly hawaii scent.  All the girls took turns holding it and smelling it.  The little children loved it so much.  We all laughed and commented we had never gotten lei'd at church before.  Now we could not say that.  AHHH Robin you are wonderful.  Thank you Thank you so much for your lovely gift.  WE often say one day we will go back and that day will come I am sure of it.  In the mean time, know you made this Ga girl one happy mama.  Of course Bobby loved his also and knew John did not want him to feel left out. I made him keep smelling it. You may be far in miles and distance but you are very close to us in our hearts. You are loved. As i have explained how we know you its always simple to sum it up as "Bobby's brother from another mother."


Hugs.  Aloha my friends.  

A Few More

36  Find some cute new things for my office  Pictures, Pencil Holder
37 Give my Sable a bath
38 Garage Sales, Good will
39 Make an appointment with Jen
40 Go get a message!!!!!
41 See if that big TV works i got for free and put it upstairs. 
42 Reorganize my craft room
43 Cancel Trugreen
44 Yard Work  Micah?  $12.50 hr 

Summer Days

Summer if official for me.  Working at HHS as the school secretary leaves me challenged on many levels. But i do have 2 short weeks to regroup and accomplish many tasks. "Blog it" i was told and what a great suggestion.  It will bring me to blog world which is on my list of to do's. For today.... The list in no real order.

1.  Get a mammogram.  How did i miss this appointment again?
2.  Complete physical
3.  All ready got my hair done but it will make me happy to check this one off next time
4.  Clean and reorganize pantry, laundry room, my bedroom, bathroom
5.  Paint a few colorful striped in my new closet.  They will make me happy 
6.  Reorganize my clothes in my new closet have all my shoes in the closet not in the closet
7.  Pay bills
8.  Clean office which means mountains of paperwork to sort through
9.  Keep office organized i don't like that i am not good at this one
10  Crafts
11  Want to sew, make jewelry
12  Meet up with some friends for play date
13  Organize a game night with friends
14  Go to Stone Mountain and see the Lazer Show
15  Got to the lake and just read!!!
16  Read "Look Again" by Lisa Scottoline recommended by Samantha Cosby
17  Keep running and ride my bike would like to move 25 miles a week
18  Would like to go on a mini vacation
19  Go visit Sasha and see her new improved house she will be renting
20  Spend quality time with God every am starting today!
21  Get a current will written up
22  Keep Bobby motivated to walk 2 miles a day
23  Get carpets shampooed
24  Read and start keeping up with other blogs i am up at 5:30 today :)
25  Watch movies, love to do this!!!  Even old ones i have all ready seen
26  Go play at the pool.  Maybe Celeste?
27  Go dancing at Loca Luna with a group for fun
28  Watch a sunrise or sunset on the water
29  Be still at the top of Stone Mountain
30  Call Marlene and send the girls some $ for graduation with some baby pictures
31  Call Robin and John and see how they are doing
32  Repot some plants and need 1 more succulent for the baby pot Sasha painted me
33  Make some great salads to chow down on
34  Get motivated to read Weight Watchers blogs and keep Bobby motivated to health
35  Write down recipes for Sasha may give to her for her birthday I got the recipe cards :)

That helps to get it written down. 

FREAKing out!

Up again.. Early
4:00AM today and wondering why i am so worried.  I have not been able to sleep all night this week.  Dreaming I can't find my bike, and today that I just can't breath right to swim.  I am going to be the slowest and have to focus on just completing the race.  Going to look at a Drifit Nike Tank with Built in Bra.  A tankini will not be cool in the water.  I was going to wear a bra under it but i will at least go look at it.  HMMmmm may do it now online.

ONE WEEK AWAY -

It is almost here!!

My first Triathalon at Lake Lanier

I have been training and preparing for this grand adventure

But the real fun is that my family is behind me all the way.

Who does this for the first time at 56?  I'm just sayin'

Next week is the last week for students at HHS.

This year has literally flown by.

Days come, anticipated weekend passes

Then i do it again.

Bobby has kidney stone surgery that was a long, 2 week painful process for him but it is behind us now and i can see he feels so much better

Going to talk to him about doing weight watchers online

I want him to be more healthy and be much more active with me

Praying for Sasha she is lonely and her dog Baloo itches like crazy

That has got to be stressful.  It is when he stays with us while she is doing her 12 hour shifts.  So 3rd vet consult on Monday.  Things to do today... 

Mothers Day

I shall never tire of feeling loved

I felt loved !!!

Saturday the girls and  I did the Gardens for Connoisseurs

Atlanta Botanical Gardens

Before the first stop (5 acre estate on West Paces Ferry,

Arthur Blank's house,owner of Falcons and Home Depot)

I told the girls remember that part in Pretty Woman when she is all dressed up and they are going to the Opera, she is wearing the red dress and she tells him in the elevator "If i forget to tell you later, i had a great time today."  

It made me tear up they probably thought LAME.

It was a very fun day.  Lots of driving.  One day i do want to walk around the prado in ATLANTA.  Not necessarily the middle "private" walkway but look at all the houses and their gardens.  And next year i want to end up at the Botanical Gardens for the evening activities.  Then top the evening off with Cafe Intermezzo.  YUP that's the plan.

So thankful for my private Chauffeur.  Thanks Ra.

I love you girls and love for us to all share memories together.

Surery Day

Its Tuesday and i should be up to my elbows in paperwork.  End of the school year and there are lots of "TO DO's"  But i will be sitting in a waiting room waiting for Bobby to come safetly from surgery for Kidney Stones.  YUCK.  He will be brave and i will be brave with him.  Praying for a painless recovery and he will be back on the road to good health.  Also praying for a job for him !! Financial peace for a while would be a welcome blessing

Sunday

I have things i want to do and things i have to do

Wants:
Ride Bike
Go Run
Finish organizing and going through clothes, etc.
MY ROOM LIST
Go look at and purchase some new plants for the back porch i cleaned out
Sew (purse or bag i have a pattern for)
Relax and read a book
Watch the Princess movie Brian gave me
Make peace with Sasha
NEED TO DO:
Go Run/ Mental  regroup
Clean mop organize kitchen (Company later)
Mow the back yard
Weed the places around the house that need it
Blow out driveway and garage
Clean out my car
Organize my purse
Finish recycle process of my room

OK It's 9:00 am maybe this will motivate me to get lots done.....

Lessons Learned (finally)

Probably not.  Now that i have raised and sometimes am still offering advice to my children.  I get this great lesson that reminds me i do not have to know everything and i am most certainly not in charge!!!  Thus the weekend fight with my youngest.  OK so she is "talking" to the EX boyfriend we don't like.  It does not give me the right to not consider her feelings when dealing with this issue.  I will attempt to be more mindful of her feelings.  I need to remember that when talking to my other children they are going to "attack" since they share some of the same feelings we do.  What i do not understand is how she can be so "blind" to the logic of it all.  I guess i am reminded that i also made mistakes that helped my mold in to who i wanted to become.  So i must be patient.  God allows us our trials so we can become the creation he intended us to be.  I apologize to God and ask forgiveness for attempting to take this matter into my own hand and have little faith and He has a bigger and better plan.  My job is to love my children unconditionally!  I pray i become a more aware and loving mother and wife.  With my arms open not crossed.....

Well of course, I am a chicken

Knowing surgery was days away made me feel anxious

and nervous.  Not that i didn't want my thumb to get better just that I don't like hospital WHITE,  Time just stops in a hospital setting and you don't feel in control.

But it is over, I don't remember a thing.  

Ra was my anchor and i am thankful she was here to help me out.

Bobby went out to the lake for this last bit of weekend.  Justin, Lyndsey, and Marah are there also.

Stitches out on Friday and it should be good as new.  I had been doing a great job walking but have taken a few days off.  Surgery was Thursday and I will start walking again tomorrow.  (Sunday)

I still have lots of projects to do around the house.  Wash and see which capris fit me for spring,  organize my jewelry on my $10.00 garage sale find.

Saturday Mornings

I am finishing up week one.

According to Livestrong.com

The calories are being counted and I guess they matter.

No real change in poundage but that is ok!

For now i feel great EXCEPT

i do have anxiety about my left thumb surgery on Thursday.

I know "He is a doctor, He does it all the time, It will be better after!"

What if..

It creeps in and makes me feel vulnerable and a little fearful.

Plus I don't like being unable to do what i want to do WAH

There i said it I vented !!!

Today i am alone at home which i cherish and love. 

Bobby is at Oconee getting all those things taken care of. 

I know how much he loves being there and sometimes

have to PUSH him to get going.

I am cleaning, laundry, office work and "hanging out"

When i return home all will be in order its my crazy ~ I claim it ~

When you can't control other things  (surgery outcome)

By George I can control my house being organized and clean.

Yup  its my crazy and it doesn't have to make sense.

Listening to Nora Jones, windows open, birds singing in the background

That's a good thing for sure 

Big Fat Happy Tears

That's exactly happened when i received these at work on March 30

Well actually at first i was just shocked and puzzled

Then i read this

Now the Big Fat Happy Tears as many coworkers stopped by and they also

said "Awwwwww"  Justin was not there to hug me but i received many.

They are home with me now so i can enjoy them here also.

A son...

There is something so powerful about that.  I remember thinking after he was born " I made a penis, how did that happen.?"  I asked God to help me wrap my brain around that concept because no part of me could understand this miracle.   Apparently Bobby was pretty impressed also because he was the photographer since Justin was our second baby and we had a better clue what to expect.  We talked about it and decided we wanted those first pictures to be taken by dad.  I remember hearing him say "It's a boy!  It's a boy" many times as we were both crying.  I was so excited to see these first pictures of our baby boy so new and fresh to the world.  His precious face and hands and feet.  Instead i looked at probably 7 pictures of his enlarged penis.  Bobby said he does not remember taking that many but the poses are all different and no one else had the camera.  

Justin grew up outside playing and running and jumping!   He was a boy!  i often wondered why he could not sit quietly and color and look at books.  Tamara did and she managed to stay clean for most of the day.  I quickly realized i had an ACTIVE baby.  He has a big heart and becoming a dad himself has opened him up to a wonderful world full of little kissed and hugs.  Marah loves her dad there is no doubt about that.  That spot in her heart is for him alone.  I love watching them together.  He has a woman in his life now that we are waiting to watch the outcome of.  I love watching all those special moments as well.  I am so glad he is leaving much closer to us now.

He blessed me today in a big way. I still tear up when i think of this act of kindness! 

It's a New Diet

So i am feeling pretty empowered right now.
I started to count my calories.
Today i actually paid attention to what i ingested
and i was shocked to see how quickly the calories add up.
I even joined Livestrong.com
My log in is CClenz and my password is secret.
It is a very cool website that also help me track
my workouts. My goal is to loose 15 pounds.
There i said it.
More important i want my BMI index to be much
lower than it is right now.
I am currently at 147 pounds and
my B.M.I .is 26.9
I want 18.5 to 24.9
I am actually very excited for tomorrow.
Definitely need more water that is my goal only 2 glasses today

On the Road Again

Yup I am almost back! Sometimes it just takes a minute. My mind is willing but my body is rebelling. Well actually my mind is thinking about it. Exercising full time again. The weather has been cold and i have been in a funk! I know the exercise will make me happy again. It is a life long proven reality. When i exercise i am a happier person. I am going to have to see a Dr. for my hands. My left hand thumb hurts when i bend it. By the time i get home doing the pump class is NOT an option and the last time i rode bikes YIKES. My right hand 2 middle fingers hurt mostly in the palm area and when i bend them. REALLY cause I have no other ailments !!! OK Enough venting. 65 appointment set up for attendance in the am! Keeping a brave front.

A New Day

THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE
LET ME BE A BLESSING
NOT TO GET SUCKED INTO GOSSIP
TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO ONE PERSON
TO CARE
TO PRAY
TO LOVE AS GOD LOVES ME
TO FORGIVE
MYSELF
TO START OVER
BEING THE BEST I CAN BE
NOT BY MY WILL BUY BY THE GRACE OF GOD.

It is now March 3

And my goal is still to keep moving. I have been away for a bit. But i have been having a wonderful time. Went to New Orleans for Mardi Gras. Going back home is always bittersweet. This time is was just sweet. I may blog about that later. But for now i am staying with my "Keep Moving" theme. Being away from the gym for 3 weeks was fun but now i am motivated to start back. The music, the people working out, the opportunity to just be with me makes me happy. That is how i feel at the gym when i am sweating. It is 2nd semester at school and that means alot of deadlines. Lately i don't feel like my light is shining. I am frustrated and need more hours in the day. It makes me feel short and a little nasty. I don't like to be that way. I know getting back to moving will help. That and prayer. Thankful that I can ask for forgiveness and know that I can start over again tomorrow.

Seeing my baby

My baby girl is 20. She has just started nursing school. AS in 3 weeks ago. She is a precious child who loves to laugh, can be very indecisive, knows right from wrong and loves her family. So it hurts to see she is seeing someone we all DO NOT LIKE! From the first time I met him I was trying to be open minded about this young person who had all ready done it all better, faster, bigger etc.
I know of another gentleman like this and I am glad he is no longer married to one of my BFF's. But seeing all the pain she went through leaving him was hard. I continue to pray for my girl and I believe in her and know in my heart she will continue to learn and grow and one day look back on life's lessons with a wiser heart. I miss her so much! But today she is coming home and I will welcome her with open arms ! Memorizing and absorbing every second with her. Being a mother never ends. I always want the best for my children. I want them to have the knowledge that they can do anything they set their mind to, they CAN have it all. (All meaning an abundance of people you love who love you, a family that is far reaching) But it does take hard work and discipline. I pray she continues to grow under God's watchful eye. I am reminded that at a young age she accepted Jesus and asked to be baptized after seeing her sister transform into a new creation also. Mark and Sandee spoke with her and even tried to get her to wait until she was older but she said "no." She heard that quiet still voice. I will wait and continue to pray. "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. Not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works , which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:8-10

I am moving....

After all that is the inspiration for my blog. Keep moving. When i was growing up and living in different situations I found that moving "physically" helped me cope with the emotional issues i was struggling with. In my childhood years there were not social workers in schools and no one talked about sexual or emotional abuse. You just dealt with it and moved on. Literally. i knew i was different and I knew I did not belong but could never put my finger on what was different about me. I was very skinny and do not have many memories of that time. I am ok with that. I do remember that I was a great long distance runner. i loved to run. It would exhaust my mind so that i could relax my body. Now years later i still truly enjoy that time to regroup with myself. I taught aerobics for years when the kids were young, i loved doing it and motivating others to do it with me. I found wonderful friendships and shared that bond with many mothers. I am so thankful to have a healthy body. I am thankful that I have a gym near my home that I can go to. This week i have been to the gym 4 times and have walked 5 miles on the treadmill at home. It has been a great start after the holiday celebrations to get back to it!!!

Happy New Year 2010

Our New Years have always been centered around our kids. My husband of nearly 30 years literally turns into a 10 year old when it comes to the tradition of popping fireworks. Thus, party at our house in our cul de sac with all our neighbors outside at midnight for the grand finale. I have been able to have a couple of weeks off since I work in the school system and the time i have been spending with our children and grandchildren has been priceless. Very relaxing. Now the reality of a New Year. No long term resolutions for me. But definitely some month long short term ones.
1. Get back into the gym. (I always do this so its nothing new but restarting after a break of eating and relaxing makes it a goal.)
2. Keep my blog going. Have never had one but like the idea of thinking my thoughts and giving them a place to reside.
Yup that's good for the month of January.
Our little Jackson who is 18 months old stood up and clapped for himself as we all cheered him on.
Sasha started her LPN program today. She has chosen to be in an abusive relationship. I will refer to as Ronald McDonald. For this I am sad but believing in the God of all to give me strength and her wisdom.
Praying for health in 2010 and jobs for Bobby.